I’m not easy to understand.
Most of the time, people misinterpret my actions, some misjudge me for my decisions, others just cant understand how I roll. I know, I’m not easy to understand. That’s why I treasure those who truly does.
My personality is easy. I’m always hiding something. Now, before I’m mis quoted again, let me explain on that:
I’m not very expressive. In a very strange way it’s difficult for me to connect with people in a deeper level. I don’t easily trust. I have my wall. And even if you are my friend, I can’t assure You can pass that wall. Not because I don’t want to. I really do but that’s my personality. I’m very protective of myself. One, because I grew up without my parents and two, I know I am born a lone wolf. I protect myself naturally.
A big part of that is hiding my feelings. I never say what I feel since I’m young. I remember just crying in my room silently then going out as if nothing happened. I dont tell anyone when I’m helpless. I dont like to bother someone but when you approach me, I will gladly open up (If I trust you). I dont like asking for help, as bad as it may sound. As long as I can, I’ll do it on my own. Unless I am barely hanging, I will do everything on my own. That screwed me when I worked in a company. So many mistakes everywhere because I’m too shy or to prideful to ask for help.
I work alone. I cry alone. I enjoy my days being alone.
This is why I am misinterpreted. Why most don’t understand me. It’s not being snobbish, it’s not being apathetic. I am just reserved. Not on my will but this just how I am.
I am always misunderstood but It’s okay. Some people understands me. My boyfriend does, my best friends does and I think, they’re more than enough.